I was going to write down one of my rants about girls on Instagram but then I thought nah Anna, you’re probably not in the position to judge, why don’t you take these last days of 2015 to spread a few deep words and end this year with a clear conscience? Ok, so let’s be thoughtful instead – I’ll get back to my rant sometime in the new year, promise!
I’m not a big fan of resolutions for a new year because I make some every couple of days – I don’t really keep to them, I forget about them until I remember and re-make them. Cycle closed, so why would I do the same thing at the end of the year? New year, new me – blahblah.
Well, this time, I must admit that I’m getting a little sentimental somehow. That’s so not typically me and I don’t know where that comes from exactly. Maybe it has something to do with my perception of the time that we live in – kind of uncertain, kind of hostile, even if far far away from my own microcosm. But maybe it’s just that I have changed?
Usually I spend this day of the year anticipating its end or even go to bed early in order to wake up to a fresh start, to finally leave all of the frustrations and failures behind – the magic of a new beginning, a mental shed of whatever doesn’t feel right. Not a new me, but a lighter me. What’s done is done, you can’t change it and there is no point in regretting things from a book that is closed. Relieving, if you ask me. But this time I keep thinking and thinking about what I’d like to leave behind in this closing year and I can’t think of a single thing. Somehow, everything seems to be going the right way, even if with a detour or another. Weird. So, so weird.
And you know what? I’ve come to the point that this is probably how that satisfaction you sometimes hear about feels like – that hashtag blessed type of awareness that everything is fine, that life could be so so much worse, that you’re doing great even if not everything you do turns out the way you had planned it in a thousand resolutions before. I think that’s it. In that case we can make this thoughtful resolution thing a quick one – in the new year, I would like to:
- complain less, thank more
- have no fear
- never forget what I bring to the table
- be more patient
- never be easily satisfied
- demand more
- be more generous with love and kindness towards my close circle – they are always the ones who can’t be considered enough
I’m sure I forgot ten other powerful resolutions to make, but you get what I mean – just be more of a balanced, satisfied and confident person, you know. Is that a plan? Not on this blog though, don’t get your hopes up – we’ll keep it mean and spoilt here. How about you? What do you think is a good resolution to make – not only for the new year, but any day of the year?
If we don’t hear from each other before 2016: I hope you have a great start into the new year, I wish that all the weight that the old one has brought to you falls off and I hope that you get a big share of that magic of new beginnings – there’s enough for all of us. Id’ like to thank the couple of you who read all of my posts, comment and, most importantly, get my sense of humor. I always appreciate any kind of feedback you give me – even the negative one, I promise – and I’m excited to implement it next year!
New Years are good for you, trust me.
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